I definitely spend a lot of my time thinking of ways I can be a better parent. There are so many things I’m trying to avoid I forget to focus on what I am doing. There are a lot of things I like and dislike about how I grew up. I get so catch up in the downfalls I forget that my children were not there. I am trying to undo things that were never done. They have always been able to express themselves as long as they were not yelling or whining. That means I listen to every little thing they have to say, which drives me crazy. I always think I’m going to miss something important and they are going to feel neglected and un heard. First off why am I torturing myself they are only talking because they know I will stop to listen. Half of the time they have nothing relevant to say, when I answer them they just make something up. I recently started this bible plan Parenting God’s Way and I find it very helpful. I know that children learn mostly by following example, and this lesson made me realize that I’m not showing them what I want from them. I say things that are random and irrelevant on a daily basis, how dare me get mad at them. I do it to start conversation, but so do they. ( They just don’t have to skills to know how to include me in the conversation.) I also realized they don’t really ever see me spending time enjoying myself and the things I love. I participate in what everyone else likes all day and don’t just get off by myself and do me. My children would not need to always feel like they have to be a part of what someone else is doing if they saw that is someone else. Thank God for bible lessons right? I had no idea I was doing this. One thing I loved about growing up was being involved in church activities. I don’t really attend church regularly because of person issues but that’s not what I want for my children. Church has shaped me in a lot of ways and always lead me back to the correct path. So it looks like this mama has some work to do.